As I set off on my 5K run, a sense of deep gratitude washed over me. I became aware of feeling hopeful and the hope felt tied to a deep sense of belonging. I felt at home with myself and to myself. I felt grateful for the people in my life. In the middle of so many things that I feel unsettled about, those were the things that were rising to the top for me. It felt like a tiny miracle.

What became apparent with each meter, is that, even if things aren’t resolved (see previous blog), there can be an equanimity that determines the moments on the way to resolution. When I look at the color blue, it represents equanimity - an emotionally balanced state which can only be felt at the center of oneself. In a “normal” setting, it is hard to come by. And perhaps in sensational circumstances as we find ourselves in these days, ironically, it might even be more accessible. Because we need it to be. Equanimous blue reminds me of the inner strength I possess to hold all of reality, as it is in this moment without attempting to numb, alter or deny the truth of it. And that, my friends, creates such a sense of gratitude for the present moment in all its nuanced reality. I want to live inside this blue.

“It was when I stopped searching for home within others and lifted the foundations of home within myself I found there were no roots more intimate than those between a mind and body that have decided to be whole.” ~ Rupi Kaur